Chapter 2.16 Breaking Point

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Stella passed her latest anatomy test, but just barely.

“What is wrong with me?!  Why am I not getting this?!  I studied for hours, why did I not remember anything?!”  She berated herself over and over again.  “I am just going to have to study twice as hard for the next one.”

The next test was still two weeks out, but as soon as her last class was over Stella made her way to the library to study.  It was almost 2am when she finally pulled her head out of her notebook.  The words on the page were all starting to run together, and Stella decided it was finally time to go home.

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Stella didn’t remember anything after she left the library, but somehow she made it home.  She woke up on her bed still wearing the same clothes she had on the day before. Brandon wasn’t home when she got up, but he did leave a note on the fridge. It contained six simple, and to the point, words:

“Got a job. Be home later”

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Stella wanted to be happy for Brandon, but deep down she was sad because she knew that a new job meant that soon he would be moving out. It won’t take long for Brandon to earn enough money to get a place of his own.  As much as she didn’t want to admit it to herself, Stella knew that she was going to miss him.  But why? Is it the pancake breakfasts that she is going to miss?  Or is she going to miss seeing his smiling face every morning?  Or was it both?  Neither?  Stella was a jumble of emotions, and running on only a few hours of sleep was not helping. She made her way over to the couch where Brandon slept as she tried to sort out her emotions.

Stella hadn’t realized how soft and comfortable her couch was until this very moment.  She closed her eyes as she breathed in the smell of Brandon’s after shave which still lingered on the cushions. She let out a big yawn and looked back at the clock on the microwave to see that she still had some time until she had to start getting ready for school.

“Just a five minute power nap.” Stella promised herself before she passed out.

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Stella woke up again to the sounds of Brandon unlocking the front door.

“He is home early,” Stella thought, but then realized, “Ohmygawd, I slept in the whole day!”

“Holy shit, what time it is?” Stella jumped off the couch, but got tangled up in the rug and crashed to the floor. “I can’t believe I slept in the whole day!” Stella scrambled into her bedroom to change clothes.

“I am so stupid.  I am so stupid!” she kept reprimanding herself over and over again.

there was no time to shower, or even comb her hair.  Stella quickly put on the first sweater that she grabbed from her dresser. It was a purple turtleneck that Aunt May bought her last Snowflake Day. It is usually one of her favorite sweaters, but today it became a maze as she lost herself when she tried to put her head though one of the arm holes and her arm through the hole for her head. She lost hope for finding a matching pair of socks and tired to put her left shoe on her right foot.  Finally, she gave up, threw both shoes at the wall, and broke down crying on the floor.

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Brandon entered Stella’s room to find her hysterically crying. It broke his heart seeing her this upset. He knew the boundaries, and that Stella wanted to be “just friends”. But at this moment he didn’t care. Brandon saw that the love of his life was in pain, and he needed to do something about it. Brandon picked up Stella in his arms and sat with her on her bed.

“Everything will be okay,” Brandon comforted Stella as he held her in his arms.  “Just let it all out.”

So she did.  Stella let all of her frustration and fears leave her body in the form of tears.  Her whole body shook as she sobbed on Brandon’s shoulder. After Stella ran out of tears Brandon suggested, “Why don’t we take a walk?”

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The cool night air felt refreshing and Stella began to feel better as they walked. By the time they made it to the beach Stella was starting to feel like her old self again.  She was so caught up in missing her classes that she almost forgot to ask Brandon about his new job.  Although she could tell by his uniform what kind of a job he got.

“I joined the military.” Brandon announced anyway.

“I am really proud of you,” Stella meant it.  “It takes a special kind if person to join the military.  It’s takes someone who is strong, proud, and brave.”

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From that first walk to the beach a new routine was born.  Stella had suffered the consequences of over studying, so now whenever she felt overwhelmed she and Brandon would take a walk.  Soon those walks became less about relieving stress and more about wanting to spend time together.

Stella enjoyed listening to Brandon talk about his training and the guys in his squad.  When he talked about his duties, he never complained.  Brandon took pride in everything he was doing, from his 20 mile hikes to the endless mountain of potatoes he pealed.

Those walks even allowed Stella the confidence to be able to give herself a day off and enjoy the Fall Festival with Brandon and her aunts. It was at the festival, bobbing for apples next to Brandon, that Stella had an epiphany. She realized how much she really wanted Brandon in her life. And she couldn’t bare the thought of him leaving again.

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That night Stella had a hard time falling asleep. Her mind was at a tug of war about her feelings. Stella had trust issues, it was an affect of being abandoned by her parents.  No matter how much she wanted to, Stella was unable to fully open up to anyone.  She loved her aunts more than anything, but there were things that she couldn’t talk to them about.

Although she understood the reasons behind it, Stella still saw Cindy and Ryan as the parents who gave her up, and she had a hard time opening up to them as well.

Stella only had one friend when she was a teenager (and we all know how that turned out), which puts Brandon in that same category.

Despite her growing love for him, Stella couldn’t let her guard down. Her heart was saying, “tell him how you feel”, while her head was shouting, “he will only betray your trust again!”.

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Stella wasn’t the only one having a hard time falling asleep that night.

As soon as Brandon had earned enough money the first thing he did was buy a bed and move into the spare bedroom. Not that the couch wasn’t comfortable, but he did like having his own room again. A place for him to think.

As Brandon laid in his bed he replayed the events of the Fall Festival over and over in his mind. His military training has gotten intense, so the break came at the prefect time for him. And he felt honored that Stella invited him to spend the day with her and her aunts.

There were several moments that he kept hitting the repeat button on. Like playing Frisbee with June, or watching May take home first prize for her peach cobbler. Brandon’s face lit up like a jack-o-lantern as he thought about how his heart skipped a beat when Stella grabbed his arm and hung on for dear life as they walked through the haunted house together.

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But the part that he loved the most was, after the haunted house, when Brandon and Stella shared some apple cider. She was excited about the end of her semester fast approaching, because the next semester is when she starts learning in the hospital with real patients.

Brandon also liked how Stella seemed to enjoy listening to him talk about his training. He joked about how he was not looking forward to hiking for 20 miles in the snow. Maybe it was the cider, but Brandon’s silly joke make Stella crack up laughing. It was dark, but Stella’s beautiful smile lit up the entire night. Seeing that smile made him fall in love with her even more. Plus, knowing that he was the cause of her smile, made Brandon want to make sure that he would be the only one making her smile.

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Chapter 2.15 Second Chance

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Stella woke up the next morning to the smell of fresh pancakes.  For a moment she thought that she was still asleep; dreaming of` Aunt May’s cooking.  But when she walked out of her bedroom she found Brandon behind the stove.

“Good morning,” Brandon smiled as he flipped a pancake in the pan.

“I never knew you could cook,” Stella stood watching Brandon in awe.

“I picked up a few tricks from watching Norman.” Brandon explained.

Stella moved closer into the kitchen to watch Brandon. He looked like a natural.  Stella also noticed that Brandon was still wearing his boxer shorts and t-shirt from last night. Stella found herself staring at Brandon’s muscular arms more than she should have.

“I wanted to make you some breakfast to thank you for letting me sleep on your couch.” Brandon put the fresh pancakes on a plate for Stella.  “You are almost out of milk though.  I barely had enough for the recipe.”

“Yeah, my fridge is pretty bare,” Stella admitted.  “I don’t cook at all.  Aunt May tried to teach me once, but I almost burned the house down.  I usually eat at the hospital cafeteria or I’ll order a pizza.  Vito’s Pizzeria has gotten to know me so well that they named a pizza after me.”

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“So what’s your plan?” Stella asked with a mouth full of pancakes.  It had been a long time since she has had something for breakfast besides cold cereal.

“I’m not entirely sure,” Brandon sipped his orange juice.  “I want to find a job, but no one is going to hire me wearing torn up jeans.”

“Every Sunday I have dinner with my aunts, but in the mean time we can go shopping.” Stella loves shopping. Plus she needed some retail therapy after the brutal week of school.  “And before you even protest, you need to know that I want to do this.”

Stella reached across the table and took a hold of Brandon’s hand, “you risked your life to save mine, and I could never repay that.  So instead let me help you.  We can get you a few new things to wear and you can stay on my couch for as long as you want to.”

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Brandon still protested anyway, but in the end Stella won and they spent the morning at the mall getting new clothes, shoes, and everything else he needed.  He was grateful, but Brandon couldn’t help but notice the awkwardness between them.

Brandon loves Stella; he always has and he always will.  Unfortunately for him, he could tell that the feeling wasn’t mutual.  She acted nice and pleasant, but Stella had walls up to keep her from getting close (both physically and emotionally).

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The Seasons and their significant others all showed up at Stella’s home around 6pm.  And you can imagine how surprised they all were when Brandon greeted them at the door.

“Brandon,” April, May, and June greeted him with a friendly hug as they introduced him to their boyfriends. “it has been a long time.  How have you been?”

The men talked to Brandon about sports, and cooking, and comics while the women talked to Stella in her room.

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“We are not judging,” May started the conversation, “we are just a little surprised to find you living with your ex-boyfriend.”

“First off, we are not living together the way you think we are,” Stella was on the defense, although she wasn’t sure why.  “Brandon is sleeping on the couch.  Secondly, he saved my life.  This is literally the least that I could do for him.  Thirdly, we are just friends.  He is only staying here until he can afford to get a place of his own.”

“Or until you realize that you love him,” June interjected.

“I don’t love him,” Stella finally said what she had been feeling for a long time, “yes, I was in love with him at one time in my life. I also trusted him.  And he betrayed that trust.  I don’t know if I can ever forgive that”.

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The dinner was spent in joyous conversation.  May offered to give Brandon a few cooking lessons, while June offered to see if the stadium was hiring.  But when everyone left, the awkwardness returned.

“I have to get up early tomorrow,” Stella retreated into her bedroom. And once again Brandon was alone in the dark.  What Stella didn’t know was that Brandon had overhead the conversation with her aunts.  And the way she emphasized the “just friends” part cut him like a knife.

“I don’t blame her for not trusting me,” Brandon thought as he put his head down to sleep, “but I will show her that I am not a failure.”

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The Liebster Award II

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I was so excited to see that I was once again nominated for this award.  This time by
the lovely and talented sempreviva and her Stories from the Sims 3. Her
story features the lovely Rose and her adventures in Sunset Valley.  One of my favorite aspects of Smoke ‘n’ Roses is that every chapter starts with a rock song dedicated to it.

So the rules for the Liebster Award are the following:

  • Say thank you to the person who has nominated you for the award.
  • Answer the 11 questions the person has asked you.
  • Nominate people (comment on their blog to let them know).
  • Ask the people you have nominated 11 questions

 

Questions from semprevivasims3:
  1. Is there any foreign place that you’ve visited where you said “I could live here”
    • My mother’s side of the family all live in Europe, mainly in Germany.  I have been there many times and have always wondered what it would be like living there (except for the fact that I hate the cold).
  2. Do you consider yourself an optimist or a pessimist?
    • I am an optimist for sure.  The glass is always half full!!
  3. Where do you draw your inspiration from for your stories?
    • I get inspiration from various sources.  I am inspired by aspects of real life, music, and, of course, from Disney fairy tales.
  4. How do you feel when your sims die?
    • Anyone who reads my stories knows that I get way too attached to
      my sims (even the evil ones like Missy or Anastasis). When they die I
      take it really hard. Unless it is a sim that I killed off myself. 😉
  5. Are you a cat or a dog person? Or do you prefer other kinds of animals?
    • I have 3 dogs and 2 cats. So, if majority wins then I would say that I
      am a dog person.
  6. Love or hate the outdoors?
    • Love the outdoors, except for when it is cold.
  7. What do you consider you greatest achievement until now?
    • Graduating from nursing school has to be my biggest achievement
      thus far.
  8. Do you prefer watching movies or series? Or nothing at all?
    • I love both.  I don’t have a set schedule for work, so more often than not I am binge watching several episodes at once to try to catch up.
  9. What is you favorite music genre?
    • I love all types of music even classical, jazz, and classic rock.  My husband is getting into country music right now, so I am starting to become a fan as well.
  10. What is your favorite food?
    • This is another tough question. Again, I like all types of food. My
      husband is an amazing cook, and he loves trying new recipes.  So I get to eat all different types of food.
  11. What is your favorite color?
    • Pink (finally an easy question where I can give a definite answer).  My favorite color is pink!

 

I decided not to nominate anyone, since most of the blogs that I follow have already been nominated before (plus I can’t think of 11 interesting questions).  A new chapter will be posted shortly.  And as always have a great day or night depending on when you are reading this! ❤ ❤